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History, circa 1841, fair copy

and zeal, were lost in a strife of words, and contest of opinions. During this excitement I made the subject of religion, an object of much study and reflection. Although my feelings were deeply interested, still I kept myself aloof from all parties. In process of time however, I became partial to the Methodists, and felt some desire to unite with them. But the confusion and strife rendered it impossible, for a person of my age and limited acquaintance with men and things, to determine who were right, and who were wrong While in this situation I often said to myself, What is to be done? which of all these are right? or are they all wrong? If any of them are right, which is it and how shall I know it? While in this state of perplexity, I was one day reading the Epistle of St James, 1st Chapter, and fifth verse, where I found the following words— “If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not, and it shall be given him.
Never did any passage of scripture make a deeper impression on the heart of man, than was made on mine by this. Knowing as I did that I needed wisdom from God, and unless I obtained it, I could not determine which were right.
And the teachers of the different sects, interpreted this passage so as to destroy all confidence in settling the question by an appeal to the bible; thus compelling me to conclude, that I must remain in darkness, or do as James directs; which is to “ask of God”
At length I came to the conclusion to “ask of him for wisdom, believing that he that giveth to all men liberally and upbraideth not,” would not refuse to verify his promise to me [p. 2]
and zeal, were lost in a strife of words, and contest  of opinions. During this excitement I made made <the subject of religion,> it an  object of much study and reflection. Although  my feelings were deeply interested, still I kept  myself aloof from all parties. In process of time  however, I became partial to the Methodists,  and I felt some desire to unite with  them. But the confusion and strife rendered  it impossible, for a person of my age and limited  acquaintance with men and things, to determine  who were right, and who were wrong While in this  situation I often said to myself, What is to be  done? which of all these are right? or are they all  wrong? If any of them are right, which is it  <it> and how shall I know it? While in this state  of perplexity, I was one day reading the Epistle  of St James, 1st Chapter, and fifth verse, where  I found the following words— “If any of you lack  wisdom, ask let him ask of God that giveth to all men  liberally, and upbraideth not, and it shall be given him.
Never did any passage of scripture make a deeper  impression on the heart of man, than was made on  mine by this. Knowing I as I did that I needed a  wisdom from God, and unless I obtained it, I could  not determine which were right.
And the teachers of the different sects, interpreted this  passage so <as> to destroy in all confidence in settling the  question by an appeal to the bible; thus compelling  me to conclude, that I must remain in darkness,  or do as James directs; which is to “ask of God”  Although I came to the conclusion
At length I came to the conclusion to “ask of God  him for wisdom, believing that he that giveth to all  men liberally and upbraideth not,” would not  refuse to verify his promise to me [p. 2]
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JS, History, [ca. 1841], fair copy; handwriting of Howard Coray

6 May 1817–16 Jan. 1908. Bookkeeper, clerk, teacher, farmer. Born in Dansville, Steuben Co., New York. Son of Silas Coray and Mary Stephens. Moved to Providence, Luzerne Co., Pennsylvania, ca. 1827; to Williams, Northampton Co., Pennsylvania, by 1830; and...

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See also source note for JS History, circa 1841, draft.

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