Hyram [Hiram, Ohio] July 31 - 1832——
Broth[er] William [W. Phelps] I have received your letter dated 30th June and procede this morning to answer it. I sit down to dictate for Broth[er] Frederick [G. Williams] to write but cannot write my feelings, neither can toungue, or language paint them to you. I only can observe that I could wish, that my heart, & feelings thereof might for once be laid open before [you], as plain as your own nat ural face is to you by looking in a mirror; Verily I say unto you my only hope and confidence is in that God who gave me being in whom there is all power who now is present before me & my heart is naked before his eyes continually he is my comfeter [comforter] & he forsaketh me not in the seventh trouble and in the mean time I have learned by sad experiance there is no confidence to be placed in in man that the spirit of man is as cold as the northern blast and had I not considered the great care and multitude of busi ness which is crowding upon your mind I could not have excused the cold and indifferent manner in which your letter is writen, true you have expressed fellowship, but the spirit which I possess enjoy, the feeling of my soul enquires does this letter give me the important information which I stood in need of at the present critical moment from your hand concerning yourself your family & business & the faith & fellowship & prosperity of the breth ren in Zion &c let your own heart and the integrity of your own soul answer this question & excuse the warmth of feeling of your unworthy yet affectionate brother in the Lord travling through affliction and great tribulation, you informed me that you wrote a few lines to bear up our strength in the glorious labour wherewith our Saviour hath been pleased to call us, I rejoice exceedingly for the little strength & information God has been ple[a]sed to give me through your letter– viz– to hear that our brethren from this place & Nelson have arived safe in Zion and as I trust without accident this is the mercy of our God, but in the disch arge <of my Duty,> must inform you that they left here under this dis pleasure of heaven for several reasons now what I write I write without sparing any (or the feeling of any) knowing that God will bear me up in what I write, I will give you some of the rea sons, firstly making a mock of the profession of faith in the commandments by proceding contrary thereto in not complying [p. 1]